My blog actually turned a year old on the 1st. I’ve taken time to reread every single post I’ve written. What I have discovered is the rawness, anger, and heaviness continues to weigh on me. On the flip side, I’ve felt more love, creativity, passion, excitement, and acceptance than I ever thought possible.
Going through cancer, while utterly traumatic and painful, has given me a voice I never knew existed. Where does my resilience come from? I’ve been knocked down by so many events in my life, yet I keep standing back up. Sometimes I stumble and other times it takes longer to get back up, but I always do.
Since my last post, I’ve been diagnosed with Fibromyalgia and osteoarthritis. Am I 42 or 142? At least now I know why my body pain has been so debilitating. I can finally move without crying. I can breathe without wincing.
I haven’t fully processed either diagnosis or what that means for my future and quality of life. It’s a little too much for me to handle at this time.
More than anything, I’m filled with gratitude for the support from ALL of the warriors and friends who read my blog and continue to follow my rocky cancer path thus far. It means the world to know my voice matters and is being heard.
I thank those who don’t try and diagnose me, too. Though my written thoughts can be dark at times, you only get to see one side of me. I still exude a lot of humor and positive light. I have to recharge my batteries more frequently than I used to, but that’s okay.
This quote sums it up best…
“To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that is all.”― Oscar Wilde
Until next time,
5 thoughts on “One year BLOGversary”
I read and appreciate every word you write 🙂 You are very inspiring.
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Thank you so much, Carmen! Writing helps me gauge where I am in my healing and mentally. I appreciate YOU and hope you’re doing well. Hugs!
Love your quote ❤️. When I read your words, I think you are authentic; some people cannot be true to themselves. You are the real deal, take it or give it! I am getting ready for the holiday season, with positive energy…difficult due to back and breast pain. But I read it takes more muscle work to frown than to 😀 smile. Little but manageable.
I am wondering if the arthritis may be due to treatment? I don’t know, but all those chemicals must have some impact on your bones. So sorry for Your other Diagnosis. My sister has Fibromyalgia. There are some hospitals that have units that specialize in that. I live in Michigan and believe U of M does in Ann Arbor.
Special wishes for a bright holiday season to you.
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Oh my goodness!!! Thank you for your kind words! I write the exact way I talk, so very happy you can tell that. I smile and laugh A LOT, so no one really knows how to handle my tears or when I need to rest. I can’t be strong 24/7, ya know?!
Yes, arthritis and Fibromyalgia were caused by my cancer treatments. It’s another punch in the gut for sure. At least the pain is manageable now. Time to put on my dancing shoes and get moving again.
I hope you can get some relief from the back and breast pain. I can’t believe how long it takes the body to heal from cancer!
I hope you have an amazing holiday season! Turn that frown upside down!!!
True authenticity Meg. There is something about your written voice and I believe your heart for sharing and your message will reach so many as you continue this authentic expression of yourself.